Gone To Look For...

Staring at this page for a pretty minute, just pondering. 

For those of you who are personal friends who know who I am and what I stand for, well, you are here to support me, my thoughts, my quests, my heart, my fight…wait…’fight’? 

Where and how does that word take up any real estate in my vernacular…(funny, I spelled vernacular wrong-proof, I’m trying way too hard…hiding behind big words.) 

But- 

‘Fight’? I won’t skirt that one. 

I must really address it…the conflict. The absolute turmoil of non-resolution. 

How is it that I believe that LOVE CONCURS ALL and still find myself with my dukes up.  I mean waaaaaaaayyyyyyyyy up.  I am ready to fight at the drop of a hat…but fighting to make love happen???? What??Why??How??? It feels to me like ‘love’ seems to be running out of muscle.  It’s kind of like when we tell our kids that Santa’s power is fueled by the believing…the world’s ‘love-meter’ is flickering at an all-time low. And I’m flailing. My arrogance has hung its hat. 

But for a minute. 

I’ve kept up on my history and history has proven to me, that TRUTH always wins, LOVE IS  the answer and that it is historically accurate that ‘to fight’ for justice - ahem - (pardon me because I see that lone troller) TRUE justice is our duty as humans…I mean, humans who believe in humanity.  All. of humanity. 

I just don’t see it happening on Facebook :) 

‘THEY’ GOT US, YOU GUYS!! Well, I can only admit my own…but begging for all of you who are like me and are just so STUCK finding a way to NOT succumb to the separation and vile, vile hatred..even among ‘friends’. 

The ‘rewind’ we need goes back to the beginning of time.  But my two cents is this- 

How ‘bout- 

Let’s go back to when ‘we’ - not me- not you - but ‘someones’ ancestors came to THIS country. Why don’t we try super, super hard to even admit…that this land was stolen. Stolen from (don’t worry, I won’t bring up the ‘paid slaughter’ of Indians…oops) EVENTUALLY our ‘forefathers’ seemingly designed a ‘do-over’ (27 times) to make ‘all men equal’ yada, yada …still.waiting…but not before the entire country was built on the back of slaves. 

So let’s stop there.  Let’s rewind ‘there’.  Let’s all try super, super hard to face those facts. They.are.facts. We cannot erase them. And because we cannot erase these facts…we.cannot.move.forward. We.cannot.move.forward. The mirror- oh - it is so very unattractive. So…we look away.  We ALL look away. ALL of us. WE are not perfect. But the actual truth that we won’t face, is in that mirror. The healing. The ed.u.ca.tion. The rebuilding of what our yesterdays have left us with will only come if we acknowledge…I mean start with even the baby steps of a juvenile high-school cheer of “WE ARE ALL FLAWED”.  Sorry- that’s a fact too. :) 

Shake that off, go to your neighbor’s house that you avoid when you’re taking the garbage cans to the curb, or when you’re stuck in the elevator -AWKWARD- say ‘hi’ with a smile…and find a way…to MEAN IT, DAMMIT!!! It feels so good. My poor family can attest that I have pretty much made our family a social testing ground while in public. 

Because I’m fighting. 

For love. 

And I feel ugly. 

Because I’ve got the mirror out. 

And it’s telling me I can do better…and make an impact elsewhere…and as much as I really, really love all of you…I think it will happen more effectively for me, off of Facebook. We all know that mirror is cracked, anyway.

Feel free to visit me here…I get emails here, too…save the defensive asshole tantrums, trolls…and then you go kindly get your mirror out.  That’s right, assholes…I’m here for love. 

I’m kidding. Sort of. 

I love you. 

Heather

7 comments

  • Ron H

    Ron H Downers grove

    I love how you are not afraid to speak your mind! don’t feel ugly because your heart is alive and what matters! You do so much more than most! will definately look forward to your musings on here , hope to see you soon!

    I love how you are not afraid to speak your mind! don’t feel ugly because your heart is alive and what matters! You do so much more than most! will definately look forward to your musings on here , hope to see you soon!

  • Meow

    Meow Bolingbrook

    ❤️FIGHT ...for what you believe in Heather~ He'll ya! It's quite the battle, but... love will prevail.. dare to believe! We are with ya, Warrior Princess 👸🏼. Still Battling since 1967 "C'mon People Now, Smile On Your Brother Everybody Get Together Try To Love One Another Right Now" ! Anything, everything...starts with us! Love your passion! Love your guts! Go girl and bring us along 🙂

    ❤️FIGHT ...for what you believe in Heather~ He'll ya! It's quite the battle, but... love will prevail.. dare to believe! We are with ya, Warrior Princess 👸🏼. Still Battling since 1967 "C'mon People Now, Smile On Your Brother Everybody Get Together Try To Love One Another Right Now" ! Anything, everything...starts with us! Love your passion! Love your guts! Go girl and bring us along 🙂

  • Sherry Swaggart

    Sherry Swaggart Chicago

    You are the light that I will always follow, my friend. Your heart is in the right place....give yourself just a little break. Take care.

    You are the light that I will always follow, my friend. Your heart is in the right place....give yourself just a little break. Take care.

  • Remy

    Remy Geneva, Switzerland

    Thank you for your post Heather. I understand your decision and I could not agree more. When Trump was elected I went off of FB. I couldn't stand it anymore. I went back on to FB because I realised that it allows me to keep in touch with friends around the world, but in a friendly superficial manner, genre " HI, HOW ARE YOU!" in the supermarket line. While I do enjoy FB, I have reduced my time on social media because I find that it gives me time to live the REAL LIFE. I am saddened by some people's reactions and find it hard not to judge. (So hard, what great practice for training my mind though!) I ask myself this... How many true americans are there? My grandparents were english, welsh and polish. Yours were a cocktail too. Everyone has diverse ethnic backrounds in the USA and that is what makes the culture interesting and creative. I feel that some misguided citizens are turning against the very ancestors that brought them to what has become their homeland, and disrespecting them in the process. It has taken me some time to be able to put love and warrior in one sentence but here it is... The revolution has started, and I am a love warrior. I will always fight for what seems right to me but have come to realise that FB is not the right support for that. May the light of love shine upon your path. Keep moving forward Heather, you are already making a difference. <3

    Thank you for your post Heather. I understand your decision and I could not agree more. When Trump was elected I went off of FB. I couldn't stand it anymore. I went back on to FB because I realised that it allows me to keep in touch with friends around the world, but in a friendly superficial manner, genre " HI, HOW ARE YOU!" in the supermarket line. While I do enjoy FB, I have reduced my time on social media because I find that it gives me time to live the REAL LIFE.
    I am saddened by some people's reactions and find it hard not to judge. (So hard, what great practice for training my mind though!) I ask myself this... How many true americans are there? My grandparents were english, welsh and polish. Yours were a cocktail too. Everyone has diverse ethnic backrounds in the USA and that is what makes the culture interesting and creative. I feel that some misguided citizens are turning against the very ancestors that brought them to what has become their homeland, and disrespecting them in the process. It has taken me some time to be able to put love and warrior in one sentence but here it is... The revolution has started, and I am a love warrior. I will always fight for what seems right to me but have come to realise that FB is not the right support for that.
    May the light of love shine upon your path. Keep moving forward Heather, you are already making a difference. <3

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